by Nate556 » Tue Jan 20, 2009 7:52 am
Well thanks for the warm welcome.
I'm glad I remembered the PS2 from my childhood and decided to come back and re-play them all. The games remind me of the Dune books, in terms of their size and scope. I like to compare Alis to Paul, Mother Brain to Leto II(the one that turned into the worm).
It really seems like I missed out on a great phenomena by not getting a Dreamcast and playing PSO. I'm hoping getting Phantasy Star Universe will make up for some of that, but so far i've not had a chance to hit the game shop to get the 360 and the games. So far I've not been able to find Blue Burst, I'd like to play PSO, even if it's not the same as it was 8 years ago.
I don't know why I am so obsessed with Phantasy Star now, after so long. It's kind of like playing the games satisfies something inside me, I don't know what. Usually when I play games so much, it's because my mind is working on a problem. Like for example, when i was playing Final Fantasy 7 for the first time, it was around when i first started considering getting my GED, and I literally taught myself Algebra while playing that game just by thinking about it.
A little on that, and some history about myself.
I was always a good kid until I was about 12, we moved and I had to change schools. After that, all the kids in the new school would pick on me, and even the teachers would publically ridicule(which only made the kids even more brazen and ruthless), so I turned violent and started getting into fights all the time. I was really quite like a wild animal, it didn't take much for me to jump on someone with fists flying.
After 2 years of being bullied by both teachers and students, I dropped out of school at 14. I was still pretty wild though, and at about 15, I started getting interested in religion. So i found a bible in the old house we were living in and I read the whole thing. My parents noticed my interest, and then my mom started taking me to the church she went to as a child.
It was there my life changed. I met a martial arts instructor, and then I went to his dojo where I really calmed down, and aside from 1 case of pure self defense, i've not been in a fight to this day(10 years later). I've since decided to leave the religious aspect behind, seeking to discover the spiritual in my own way, on my own path. I don't consider myself a religious person by anymeans at all, and I personally do not talk about some of my religious views, let alone argue about them.
In my opinion, sacred things should not be used to score points in an argument. But also, IRL, I am a very quiet and reserved person. I don't tout my religious or political views to anyone but those I trust and deeply respect and i know will respect what I have to say, even if they might disagree with it.
I don't really have any friends. I had a good friend once who was also my cousin, and we worked together reposessing cars. Once on a dangerous repo, he left me behind. I had a hard time startng the car, and the person came out holding a big stick. Well, He though it was a gun, so he floored the truck he was in and got out of there ASAP, leaving me to deal with the person.
The guy didn't attack me, but almost did since he thought we were stealing his car, but I explained who I was and diffused the whole situation. After that, I've turned inward again and I just can't put myself into a true friendship.
I'm going to cut it short there, or else i'll have a book typed up and you all will go to sleep with sheer boredom. Catch ya'll later.
Nat.
