I'm scared.........

[KexMex]

I just had a terrible nightmare.<p>I once had a friend who got herself a boyfriend, and they had an ok relationship.<p>But one day, he dumped her. It made her so sad, she eventually committed suicide.<p>Now, this was a long time ago, but I now had a really terrible nightmare about it.<p>I still see those horrifying scenes from the dream in my head...<p>I'm even scared of going back to sleep, if I would have the nightmare again...<p>And it's 00:40...

[ThePeaGuy]

I am sorry about your friend, Kex. My condolences.<p>Have you ever felt some form of guilt after your friend has died?

[KexMex]

Yes, I sort of blamed myself for not caring so much when she first was dumped... I eventually started thinking it was my fault.<p>My life is tiresome. ~_~

[ThePeaGuy]

<blockquote><i>Originally posted by KexMex</i><p>Yes, I sort of blamed myself for not caring so much when she first was dumped... I eventually started thinking it was my fault.<p></blockquote><p>Did you neglect her when she came to you for help, or do you think that you could've done more for her?

[KexMex]

I saw her sitting crying on a bench, and asked what's wrong. When she told me, I just said, "Well, I don't know what you should do... but I guess you'll get over it". Heck, was I wrong. Then I asked when maths class was.<p>And that was the last time I saw her. I'm utterly pathetic. ~_~

[ThePeaGuy]

You're not pathetic, because you are not the one that wrecked her life then, her ex-boyfriend did.

[KexMex]

I once asked my psychologist (Yes, I go to a psychologist. I do have some mental problems, not t mention several extreme depressions) who said the same thing. Quite surprising, that a psychologist puts the blame so certainly. I always thought those guys were supposed to be objective.

[ThePeaGuy]

<blockquote><i>Originally posted by KexMex</i><p>I once asked my psychologist (Yes, I go to a psychologist. I do have some mental problems, not t mention several extreme depressions) who said the same thing. Quite surprising, that a psychologist puts the blame so certainly. I always thought those guys were supposed to be objective.<br></blockquote><p>Do you want them to say that it was all your fault instead? Is that all what you really wanted to hear, even though it is not true?<br><p>[size=small][Edit by ThePeaGuy on [TIME]1111365948[/TIME]][/size]

[Lord Khyron]

Each person is responsible for his or her actions. Ultimately it is their choice to do it.<p>Your friend made her choice, You should not feel guilt.<p>HAd her mind been made up, you would have not been able to talk her out of it.<p>Reason is the only thing you can allow to rule you. <p>Your friend allowed Passion to rule reason, and that was her own choice.<p>You are blameless, People make their own choices in what they do. <p>Once you start believing her suicide was your fault, you're open to be blamed for everyone's problems.<p>

[KexMex]

As if I wasn't already...<p>I'm the weak guy, so I'm easy to blame.<p>Plus the other guys are jealous the girls give me so much attention. So they blame me to get revenge.<p>I'm already open, as a matter of fact I expect to be blamed.

[ThePeaGuy]

<blockquote><i>Originally posted by Lord Khyron</i><p>Each person is responsible for his or her actions. Ultimately it is their choice to do it.<p>Your friend made her choice, You should not feel guilt.<p>HAd her mind been made up, you would have not been able to talk her out of it.<p>Reason is the only thing you can allow to rule you. <p>Your friend allowed Passion to rule reason, and that was her own choice.<p>You are blameless, People make their own choices in what they do. <p>Once you start believing her suicide was your fault, you're open to be blamed for everyone's problems.<p></blockquote><p>That's right. Khyron.<p>Kex, you feel that you have never cared enough for your friend, but your grievance shows that you do care about her alot.<p>If she is in a heaven now, I don't think she would like to see you this way, Kex, I really believe that.

[LegoMuskCat]

Kex, it wasn't your fault...and it's just a nightmare. Don't let it get to you! If you do, then it'll eat you up. Try not to think about it and don't blame yourself... For your own sake, be strong! I know you can be...just believe in yourself.

[KexMex]

Thanks for the care, everyone. I do feel a lot better now.

[Wolf 10]

I agree with what everyone just said. Don't let it consume you. If you do, you'll end up just like someone I know. All right?

[Lord Khyron]

Besides, you've got other things to worry about and or possibly have nightmares about than that girl..<p>